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my life has been hell lately. and if it wasn’t for the people around me i don’t know if i would’ve made it through. i don’t know what it is but i get this feeling that i’m being made to walk the toughest possible roads to get what i want. i mean seriously how hard can it be to change universities and to get my visa altered and to get a house on top of all the other things i have to settle not to mention the quite significant fact that i’m a poor ass manager of my finances which leaves me being, well, a poor ass.

“I don’t know what your plans are regarding you and I… Just know I will always love you.”

but through it all i’ve come to realise that i will never achieve my goals in life if i stay in this warm, comfortable little hole of mine. if i am to do the things in my life that i’ve always dreamed of, then at some point i’m gonna have to take that leap. and if the water is cold, then imma hafta deal with it. if i run outta breath, imma hafta find my own oxygen. and i know i won’t drown because there are those who care about me. we’re not made to go through life alone. and cliche as it is that’s what frens are for. and when frens fail us, He will undoubtedly still be there. all we have to do is take that leap of Faith, and by His grace, nothing is impossible.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” -Jer 29:11-14

I concede that there are a lotta things in my life that i need to get right. and that there are a lotta things that are not going the way i want them to go now. but it’s not for me to say what my life should be like, it’s for me to act on my dreams and work towards them, and everything else will fall into place.

because there are so many things in life we can smile about

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whyyyyyyy. duhhh. i wan a place to live innn. sieeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnn. blehk.

“Living is a form of not being sure, not knowing what next or how. The moment you know how, you begin to die a little. The artist never entirely knows. We guess. We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark.”

and i wanna go home. i miss my bathroom

“There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.”

someone

please tell me how i should be feeling.

duhhh.

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autumn!

 

had my camera wit me on the way to uni today. and i couldnt resist the colours. wheee. i need a better lens my kit lens is annoyingly unsharp. boo.

rediscover

HDR!

leaves from my window lol

been finding myself again of late. finding how much i really do love photography some very random not very good shots here. oh well. haha!

i like this :)

inspire

if you look hard enough, some of the stuff you find on the internet can be pretty damn good.

pictures say things the way a thousand words will never be able to.

even if theyre pictures of words =P

test!

blogging from my phone

and pics work too!

whee

sakai (=

hilltop

so yesterday i was sitting in my classroom on the fifth floor being bored outta my wits by the schwäbisch Elektrotechnik professor, when i looked out the window and saw this hill in the distance which had a lil pondok on top right on the horizon, and i thought to myself, wouldnt it be nice to go up there see wad its like, take a few pics. then at 1730 when i was walking back i met weng khong, who ajaked me to go take pics wit seniors. so i tagged along, not knowing where they were bringing us, but who knew, after half an hour of walking, we ended up on the very hill i was looking out at. cool eh anyway the view from the top was okay, and i ended up wit bout 4 or 5 shots worth seeing again and here they are.

way to take my mind off things

still hurts tho.

feels bout right

“I’ll never let go because although we’re not together right now I know that it’s just not the right time or place. It may have been before, and it might be again later, but I know that right now it’s not. But I want you to know that I’m sitting, watching, waiting. When you feel it’s time you’ll know exactly where to find me because I love you, and you know that and don’t you ever forget that. Please, don’t ever forget that.”